so far my top two ideas are either fun mechanically or fun storywise but i haven't yet found an idea that does it for me in both aspects, hmmmm

spent an hour coming up with my idea (which is an improvement over the recent past of trying to participate lol), then an hour mentally refining it while getting my mind ready for bed, half an hour doodling a sketch of it with notes, and now it is time to rest because i have had SO much sleep debt and medical problems this week lol.

here's hoping i wake up with the energy and/or fortitude to actually get crackin on it! good luck people who are still awake!

As I was worried about yesterday, it seems both my recent issues with kidney stones and the resulting sleep deprivation/random severe pain are going to be getting in the way of jamming, on top of being rusty and highly variable in mood/energy/motivation and a busy weekend on top.

Even now it's almost noon and I'm torn between extra sleep after it was rudely interrupted by my kidney for a long time in the middle of the night, or go get some breakfast for my very awake appetite lol.

I'll do my best but this will probably be yet another extra category or unfinished title for me lol. C'est la vie. I really need to start doing month long jams or tutorials or something to stop being rusty before October. Maybe it's also just too soon for me to enjoy jams and game development again after years of interfering depression. I want to learn to enjoy it again though. I want to want to do LD lol.

Noon now, maybe just a liiittle more sleep...

kidney in the morning made me too tired to work, then when i was up i was too sleep debt and had a bee WAY too close to my computer (they keep getting into my bedroom somehow and then trap themselves behind the curtain by my desk??) and im scared of bees so :sob: :sob: :sob:

so i took a nap to get into a better less-sleep-debt mood and wait for the bee to fall asleep and NOW THE KIDNEY IS ACTING UP AGAIN

y'all this is DEFINITELY gonna be an extras entry if it even gets made at alllllll the universe really be SIGNALing (haha) that i should not jam this weekend lol

if i dont get anything done by tomorrow im just gonna put up a picture of my brainstorming paper :sob: :sob: :sob: