End of the Second Day – Not Again…

Well, after inadvertently sleeping in until noon (Alarm went off but it failed to wake me up…) I had an extremely unproductive day.

I’m really pissed at myself. I promised myself that I’d succeed this time. I really wanted this to amount to something. I don’t know if I can do that now.

Maybe I’m just pissy right now because I’m disappointed in myself, but I can’t picture getting any of this done by the end.

I’m really sorry, folks. I did this myself. I did this to myself. I can’t believe it. I’ve likely failed yet again. Can I ever succeed at this?

This is really sad for me. I’m wondering whether I can actually succeed at making games. Again, I’m probably just pessimistic because of how today went. I can’t shake that feeling, though.

I’m not sure what will become of my Mini-LD entry. I’m really depressed right now, and finishing it at all, even after the Mini-LD looks hopeless. I’m not sure what I want to do, or whether I want to keep going.

This is pretty much how it’s gone for the past year or so. Loads of projects that don’t even make it to being prototypes. Abandoned within days. I’m doubting whether I can actually do game dev at all.

I’m really sorry about this, folks. I just… can’t seem to get anything done. I don’t know why I’m sharing this here. I probably shouldn’t be, but I need to vent. I’m really not sure what I should do.

Still, good luck to everyone. I wish I could find hope for myself…

— Mr. Dude

Comments

JohnColburn
28. May 2011 · 21:52 UTC
Actually, I think this is exactly the right place to post these thoughts. LD is possibly the best place to find other people who understand exactly what you’re going through. Every game developer on this site has a mile-long list of unfinished/failed projects. Any developer who doesn’t have that list probably hasn’t been trying very hard.
29. May 2011 · 01:16 UTC
Thank you for that. :)