Well, I knew it wouldn’t last. I just didn’t expect it to fail this spectacularly. Day 4 was a disaster. The brain just wouldn’t work, at all, no matter what. Every time I would try to code something, my mind would just…sort of go blank, without me even realizing it would do it. I would snap out of it about 10 minutes later, realizing I was just staring at the screen. I wasn’t even *thinking* anything really, I wasn’t distracted, I would just sort of pass out with my eyes open for a few minutes.

I tried to get back into it time and time again, for about 2 hours. Then I gave up, tried again in the evening, with similar results. It just didn’t work out today. I knew this would happen eventually, as I said in the first post, the years of drinking definitely did some damage. So I’m not beating myself up about it. It wasn’t for a lack of trying, I wasn’t being lazy, it just didn’t happen.