{"author_link":"\/users\/rayhimmel","author_name":"Ray Himmel","author_uid":"rayhimmel","comments":[],"epoch":1761580790,"event":"LD58","format":"md","ldjam_node_id":423432,"likes":6,"metadata":{"p_key":"197821","p_author":"Ray Himmel","p_authorkey":"1182144","p_urlkey":"429756","p_title":"The realisation","p_cat":"LDJam ","p_event":"LD58","p_time":"1761580790","p_likes":"6","p_comments":"0","p_status":"WAYBACK","us_key":"1182144","us_name":"robri","us_username":"robri","event_start":"1759449600","event_key":"112","event_name":"Ludum Dare 58"},"node":{"_collation":{"body_sanitizer":"TextUtils::SanitizeHTML via existing importer","event":"LD58","removed_author":false},"_superparent":415614,"_trust":1,"author":182144,"body":"**Damn**\n\n*I just realised that this LD was my personal best basically in every category*\n\nThe other ones were in some hundreds overall and had like 1000+ places in some categories, this is what was the best before:\n![image_2025-10-27_173255982.png](\/\/\/raw\/087\/c2\/z\/6fa03.png)\n\nAnd it was done in a small but, like, a team nonetheless, while this year is my second compo in a row (wasn't in a good mental state last time to give any ratings sorry, I actually still have a couple of games from it I wanted to check open in my browser somewhere lol)\n\nWhile this is what I got this time (I posted it already but for the context)\n\n![Screenshot from 2025-10-25 16-41-39.png](\/\/\/raw\/087\/c2\/z\/6fa04.png)\n\nNow I'm left to wonder if participating in stuff like GameOff is a good idea considering my tight schedule (full time job as a game designer + masterate with semester ending in mid-december, I have some considerable works to do + occasional activism + chronic mental stuff as you could see in my game lmao). \n\nI'd really like to finish a game demo we had to drop at ShovelJam this summer because miscommunication and broken promises (assets were a little bit rushed but basically ready to be used in game, then dev failed to communicate with me about anything and just ghosted me till the very end, I barely can code something complicateed, so I couldn't do it by myself and gave up at *the* deadline hour) but my team might be busy af as well :( \n\nngl LD is always inspirational and I actually feel that I chose a right field to work in but severe AuDHD burnout takes its toll","comments":5,"comments-timestamp":"2026-03-24T20:49:04Z","created":"2025-10-27T15:32:44Z","files":[],"files-timestamp":0,"id":423432,"love":6,"love-timestamp":"2025-10-28T13:10:55Z","meta":[],"modified":"2026-03-24T20:49:04Z","name":"The realisation","node-timestamp":"2025-10-27T15:59:50Z","parent":419435,"parents":[1,5,9,415614,419435],"path":"\/events\/ludum-dare\/58\/blank\/the-realisation","published":"2025-10-27T15:59:50Z","scope":"public","slug":"the-realisation","subsubtype":"","subtype":"","type":"post","version":1341968},"node_metadata":{"n_key":"423432","n_urlkey":"429756","n_parent":"419435","n_path":"\/events\/ludum-dare\/58\/blank\/the-realisation","n_slug":"the-realisation","n_type":"post","n_subtype":"","n_subsubtype":"","n_author":"182144","n_created":"1761579164","n_modified":"1774385344","n_version":"1341968","n_status":"WAYBACK"},"source_url":"https:\/\/ldjam.com\/events\/ludum-dare\/58\/blank\/the-realisation","text":"**Damn**\n\n*I just realised that this LD was my personal best basically in every category*\n\nThe other ones were in some hundreds overall and had like 1000+ places in some categories, this is what was the best before:\n![image_2025-10-27_173255982.png](\/\/\/raw\/087\/c2\/z\/6fa03.png)\n\nAnd it was done in a small but, like, a team nonetheless, while this year is my second compo in a row (wasn't in a good mental state last time to give any ratings sorry, I actually still have a couple of games from it I wanted to check open in my browser somewhere lol)\n\nWhile this is what I got this time (I posted it already but for the context)\n\n![Screenshot from 2025-10-25 16-41-39.png](\/\/\/raw\/087\/c2\/z\/6fa04.png)\n\nNow I'm left to wonder if participating in stuff like GameOff is a good idea considering my tight schedule (full time job as a game designer + masterate with semester ending in mid-december, I have some considerable works to do + occasional activism + chronic mental stuff as you could see in my game lmao). \n\nI'd really like to finish a game demo we had to drop at ShovelJam this summer because miscommunication and broken promises (assets were a little bit rushed but basically ready to be used in game, then dev failed to communicate with me about anything and just ghosted me till the very end, I barely can code something complicateed, so I couldn't do it by myself and gave up at *the* deadline hour) but my team might be busy af as well :( \n\nngl LD is always inspirational and I actually feel that I chose a right field to work in but severe AuDHD burnout takes its toll","title":"The realisation","wayback_source":[]}